Ahhhh about that, yes the tension is definitely there…but with regards to Haru being ‘emotionless’…hmmmm to me it was more like…he was trying to show his indifference towards the subject at hand.
He is affected but he turns his head away giving an air of “i don’t want to talk about it”…”let’s drop that subject already”.
Ever since HS, this has been an obvious part of Haru’s personality. When he is faced with something he isn’t comfortable with, he turns the other way…or to be blunt…he escapes from it- just as he turns to water for comfort.
But of course…
to Makoto, who has been trying to open the subject. Trying his best to actually talk things out with Haru.
..It can be a little frustrating.
If Haru was not going to even going to react to what he just said (about the scouts), he’s gonna have to ask Haru straight on.
And it surprised Haru
Not that it was unusual for Makoto to ask for answers
but because, Haru doesn’t understand why this has been bothering Makoto enough for the latter to press on with a topic he obviously tried to brush off.
and then finally
THIS was Haru’s answer
So, of course Makoto had to ask if that meant Haru wouldn’t even bother responding to the scouts.
But right after…
Haru says it does not matter that he gets scouted…that if he can swim…all is fine. And that he does not swim bc others tell him to, but bc he loves doing it
While this logic is simple, it is also extremely vague.
Because it could mean A N Y T H I N G…
And personally, this conversation can only make the concerned party feel all the more hurt/disappointed.
Makoto wants answers…he wants to know WHAT exactly Haru wants…he’s tried so hard to have this open communication between both of them, but Haru (though probably unintentionally since afterwards Haru asks him “what?”) only keeps his doors only slightly open…with only little light to peek it’s way into the shrouded darkness that is uncertainty.
Also let us not forget Makoto has already had plans for what he might be doing after school. He HAS been thinking about it.
Makoto’s relationship with Haruka is very important to Makoto. And I know Haruka feels the same way for him too. And naturally, they would want the other to be happy with whatever choices they make.
BUT TO MAKE THINGS WORK BETWEEN THEM, THEY NEED TO SIT DOWN AND HAVE A NICE LONG TALK
like a GOOD COUPLE AND ERASE ALL CONFUSION, DOUBTS AND FEARS